Thursday, 24 May 2018

Dare To Be by Dr Devious

Life's a  journey, we make mistakes.
Life's a journey, of give and take.
We open doors, to new adventures.
We open doors, to seek new pleasures.
All our dreams, hopes, ambition.
All our dreams, our best intentions.
Find our way, when the path divides.
Find our way, when it sometimes slides.
Take time, to learn discover.
Take time, to listen to each other.
Every day keep our focus.
Every day forward motion.
Life's a journey, dare to see.
Life's a journey, dare to believe.

Eyes by Dr Devious

Eyes, eyes. They do not lie.
Eyes, eyes. Full of life.
Eyes, eyes. Do not disguise.
Eyes, eyes. Show surprise.
Eyes, eyes. Tears and sorrow.
Eyes, eyes. Explore tomorrow.
Eyes say so much more than words.
Eyes say ' do not be absurd'
Eyes express our deepest thoughts.
Eyes explode, the wettest tears.
Eyes wide open, full of fear.
Eyes like yours, gentle kind.
Eyes that say I'm on your mind.
Eyes with care, enjoy your stare.
Eyes so kind, take me there.
In Your eyes, I see so much.
In Your eyes, feel your touch.
In Your eyes, a gorgeous smile.
In Your eyes, spend all my time.
Eyes wide open, lasting impression.



Dear Reader

So recently I done some networking and got in touch with someone who does poems. For the purpose of privacy and all that jazz he is going to be called Dr Devious.

Monday, 21 May 2018

A Piece of You

I will never understand how something or someone can be there one minute and gone the next, everything all washed up and tidy as if nothing ever happened; as if they never existed at all! One of life's many wonders and yet something about it all lingers, the apparent non existent person lingers if not in physicality than they linger within. Suddenly I can see them, where they were right in front of me as clear as day smiling at me.  Suddenly I can hear them and the feeling of wanting to be with them is unbearable and I find myself reaching out into anything that is there, if only something to hold onto; something to cherish always.

Hurts

What do you do when you love but your lover is surrounded by the grasp of death all around him and it all somehow gets strained on you? What do you do when just as death surrounds, love seems to be the sacrifice? Nobody ever seems to know how to respond, nobody ever teaches you about these things...At the back of my mind I believe that I didn't waste my tender love, another part of me feels nothing but the empty pit of disappointment that swallows me up inside. No hope, barely light, just tear after tear as I fall deeper and deeper in despair in love. It's been this way for months now, within weeks growing further and further restricted. I try to fight this torment but I can't because at the back of my mind I know of love but cannot see it; cannot reach it. 

Oh how has it come to be that I dread my only lover holding me when they say one thing and do another? There is always a reason, always a understanding but never with me it seems. Death takes another one day, death takes a second the next. How can I compete with Death to find the love that I fear is lost to me? For no one can compete with death; nor the tight hold of a dying mother upon their beloved son. Even  life seems to convert my lover with the yells and screams of others pouring through his ears, even when he opens his mouth to speak but no sound comes out. 

My heartbreaks at every tear drop while I wait endlessly for my lover, in the halls, in the rooms, in the streets I see him not. Will he be forever gone to me while I wait in torment of him, for him, in myself as my mind cracks to pieces on the sidelines? No room for me it says, it seems and yet I know not what is or isn't anymore. 

Pain, ever so dying pain feels me as I'm stuck. Each blow the worst, each blow harder than the next to my already shattered heart. My lover never means to hit me and just like he never means to he dodges my blows. This isn't what I deserve...Deserve? You say as if it were meant for me but it's not, I'm not. I know not what I deserve, nor what it means. 

Once more I stand before their raised hand, battered and broken, tear filled and shaken. 'I believe in me and him; I believe that everything I took before wasn't a mistake'. So I let him strike me again and again and again for the thing that I have left, however little is belief. 







Love

Let my lips speak the words I cannot say, let my body express the feelings I cannot display. As my body trembles in your embrace, your gentle hands steady me and I am safe. Safe from the world and all it's pain, safe from the poison that people speak. Safe in your arms I will stay, captivated by your embrace, your soft kisses on my neck and with in the moment of happiness nothing else matters but you. It has always been you and in the moments of us apart my heart breaks, yearning for your smile and those soft brown eyes that make me swoon. A life in you, a light in you, a hope in you, without you I am barren. Can one love you as much as I love you? Can one live without you as much as I cannot live without you? Yet even my soul grows restless without you, crying out your name in the dead of night. Oh how I love you my love..my love for you knows no bounds.

To you my love, my everything I give you all.
If only, if only I see you once more,
If only, if only I see you smile,
If only, if only I touch you just to know that your real.
If only, if only you smile at me once more
Make the pain of the silence fade away...
You make it all fad away...
For your love is cold and my love is warm burning in the eyes of each other.

About a Boy

What does she have that I don't? 
Her pompous bod unwashed, a disgust. Covered by tiny flowers of perfume masking the foul odor. She sweats. The very air that she breathes smoked in tobacco, the spunk of weed steaming from the stem of her rashed skin. Red long hai as if straws, murky and the coal to the fire, matched with the green eyes of mould. 

What does she have that I don't?
A witchlings giggles, a slurred speech as if a venomous snake spitting poison on who they speak. Is i her boast in words but stupidity in speaking those same words without a screen in front of her? Or even the roll of her tongue and disfunction to feel love or even give it? Perhaps it's her soulless being biting into the defects of the helpless minds of others when she herself is broken, defected in mind, helpless to stop it? Yet she attacks it, attacks the mirror image of her defected mind. 

O hypocrite
O bully
O cruel mistress
O cunt
O whore
That witch
That BITCH!

How she kisses, licks, lays with all that possess a heartbeat without a second thought for consequence. The game of bodies and souless affection is the only game she knows how to play. 

But what do I do with the memories oh so distant love of mine? The adventures we had, our first kiss, the words of love, our first date and embrace. Our memories haunting me...Your wonderous smile, your lips. A dream, our dreams I so desperately cling onto in the dead of night. 

You were always there, here/
Always 
Forever 
You promised but broken and now your gone.

You have it all, friends, family, money. You who have it all

I gave my all, 
I bowed,
I lay with you 
I gagged my mouth shut
I have my heart to you and still resigns in you.
You who have it all would go all around the world to find someone who would submit to you when you already have mine at the palm of your hand.


You who have it all
Where did it all go wrong?
You, weak and cruel, never gave it all.
Running away from commitment you hide. 
Drinking their poison chalice you drank deep, 
                                                                                      Deep

                                                                                                       Deep 

                                                                                                                       Deep
Into the rage, blame, vile notions that planted root to your thoughts. I was to blame but not all. My need too great, my fear caged me to cage you and we burned. We turned but you ran. Not I but you took it all and I fell the fall, fool to your violent touch. 
Threaten me once
Threaten me twice
Threaten me thrice
Lie 
After lie
After lie
I died and died twice more over.
For you I died.
Forced to fall, forced to die yet still I love which makes us the hardest of all.

What became of the boy in blue with the dragon tattoo that I knew?
The boy of smiles.
The boy of love
Now desperate to undo 'I love you'
In desperation silence
My confinement
Only a boy too cruel they try to manipulate words to break my love, break me to be with that

How dare you yell
Threaten
Laugh
Break your word; our dreams
You know I wait for you to come back to me, to us, to love, to truth.
I wait and I love but you play and then you don't.
You bring doom but I stay for you
Die for you 
Kill for you
Frozen by you whilst you beat me slow, carried  my soul and dropped me into shadow. With discriminative words you pour onto me; into my mind of the colour I am not, the weight I am not, the looks I have not. 

You who had it all
You who I see without the shadows of people, I see only you. 
You who desires love yet you have mine wholeheartedly.
You who needed belief, I believe in you. 
A soul for your heartless soul you asked for, the blade of a key and I ran to hell to retrieve it for you. 
You have it all
I have nothing 
You have it all 
I lost

You who have it all 
Have all of me
You who have it all...but your just a boy.
You were my boy
You loved in lies
You who have everything but know nothing at all of love.
Love is kind, patient, it hurts.
Beyond the body, beyond the fear. 
Love is to die for the way I died for you in death. 
You, who have everything...but your just a boy not yet a man.