Untimed Survival

I done the only thing that I could do, the only thing that could end this, all of it, every single second of it. The constant anguish of it all that was all but too regrettable, that was all but non forgettable.  That was the greatest pain of all, not being able to forget  and just remembering anything, everything, all the  time but it's all jumbled. My emotions are all jumbled, thoughts to speak to me, it  speaks to me and the scares thing of them all is that I can't distinguish  between the two. What is it? Who is it? Should I even be hearing it? Write, cry, pain, obey but what? What had happened to me so fast that even the  highest of pleasure, that even the sweetest of things can suddenly fall. That's what this is I'm falling, ice consuming me, the ground crumbling all around me and I can't stop it. So I ask and hope that I get an answer, I send out a signal and hope that they see it and I knock and hope to God that I get an answer. For who will answer the call? I say who will gather their banners to give aid to me? What Good Samaritan will He  send my way? It is in these desperate times like these that one doesn't  know one's self, that one doesn't know what they once knew but only what will keep them alive.

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My Notes

A bit of a short one this time but I've added a song that matches the mood (please click on the link above). Any comments please feel free to add my way! Until my next post cya!
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