Wednesday 9 August 2017

Different Ways



My anger flared. I couldn't take it anymore, I'd had enough. She walked past me almost zombie like, her previous idle wave at me with those dead stone green eyes. I hated it but despite it all I somehow seemed to keep my anger in check. I was not her friend, I was anything but her friend and just because I just so happened to be in the wrong place, at the wrong time certainly doesn't mean I will not stop acknowledging her existence. Somehow it didn't bother me as much as I would have thought that senseless rage finally became cold. As if a shadow had passed over me, much like the shadow I had become for months now. I'd been slipping around each corner, using my back routes, avoiding people all for the sake of becoming the shadow I near enough felt all the time. Never seen, never heard, barely even worth a once over. As conspicuous as ever, that's the life that I live now; where not a single place is safe, at least not anymore. I remember a time it wasn't always like this, a time where it was safe to go anywhere without being cornered by the very thing that makes this place unsafe. Obscured morale people. The similar tugging of caution beckoned me as I down, the same caution that warily warned me about the door where the obscurities were. This time I ignored it and let my mind drift into nothingness.


I remember...I remember a time it was safe I thought sadly sinking into the stillness of the rare blank page that struck my very mind.

An Ending



There was nothing that she could do or say that could even help no one to help her and the cries of pain that she felt each and every night as she cried herself to sleep alone in the dark the pain was still there but they weren't. They were with another girl, a replacement. What more could she do? So she simply stopped doing things, she stopped speaking things and before long she stopped doing everything because this was the end for her, this was it. That's when she stopped breathing to.



Heartache Love










I met you in the dark, you lit me up

I know I needed you

But I never showed

I wanna dance with you right now

You make me feel this way somehow

I needed you most

I'm gonna love you till

My lungs give out

I promise till death we part like in our vows

 

 

I remember when you were all mine

Watched you changing in front of my eyes

Will you call me to tell me you're alright?

'Cause I worry about you the whole night

Don't leave me this way; I won't sleep 'til you're safe inside

All I know is I can't live without you

Darling, I could never live without you

 

Baby, I'm not made of stone, it hurts

Loving you the way I do, it hurts

When all that's left to do is watch it burn

 

Stuck in this dead end

 

FIGHT!!

 

You could've chose anybody but you chose me

Hiding in bedsits cause no one around us agrees

And I feel romantic cause since morning I've been at the wine

Every night when I wake up I need you to get back to sleep

They don't like me but they and I never speak

 

I never wanna lose you…

Stay with me…

Stay with me…

Stay with me..

 

And all the chemicals and alcohol make for a volatile love

But stay with me

Just stay with me